Yes I have been slacking:(

Not only have I been slacking and avoiding my blog but my shred has felt awfully lonely lately. I now weigh more than I weighed in at:( Stink!
But tonight due to my very dear friend Robyn's loving pestering I kicked my butt into gear and did level 1 with my mother in law who is about 100lbs more than me. She did great, so great in fact that I lifted my foot and stuck my big old smelly shoe right in my mouth and said that everytime she did level 1 with me I would do level 2 so that she could watch me suffer. This was before I had even tried level2! Oh man I seriously almost lost my cookies! Whew! I am so worn out! But guess what? I DID IT!!!!
Love,
Melissa

Biggest Loser: %'s are in!

Percentages are in! I am in the middle! Which is better than what I was expecting:) I didn't shred today but I did home repairs for a good 4hrs, my arm feels like its going to fall off! Ill just have to do 2 tomorow and really bust out!

Luke 11:9

Today was a day full of repairs! After about 4 hrs worth of home repairs and Ive still got to go to home depot tomorow and finish up! As I was curled up under my sink digging into my wall I was praying the whole time........God please let this pipe move, help me get this pipe to turn..........then God decided to keep me from doing something stupid. I got out my dremel and was just going to cut the thing off (which could have worked although sparks were flying everywhere) but he kept my dremel from working and gave me the patience to keep twisting the difficult pipe and guess what? It finally turned! Whew! God is good! Luke 11:9 ”So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you."

whoops.........

I forgot to post my weight..........193.8lb. I wasn't sure if we were using "." or not so my first weigh in was really 196.6lb. So with a lot of perserverance I should be down to 189.6lbs by tuesday of next week! Pray I can succeed:)

Sooo..........Im a bit dissapointed

But Ill get over it. I only lost 2.8lbs which isn't bad.....but I wanted to lose more. Im having a hard time kicking my behind into gear to get my work out done today.........and I had a sugary coffee this morning...........and I have an entire train wreck of a house to clean............and I have to go get trim for my doors, and new lines for my kitchen sink.......before I can get dishes done.......not to mention lunch for Mikeayla and nap time somewhere in there before this afternoon which is when the insurance agent will be coming to take pictures so I can get home owners insurance............grr..............Ok Im done complaining, life really isn't that bad it could always be worse. Lol Im such a whiner......gotta get to work now.....Im gonna do better next week I will reach my 3.5lb goal! And hopefully catch up my .7lb from this week so a total of 4.2lbs. I am eating a bit more healthier:) I am now geared up to go! On to day 7!

I kicked shred butt today!

So I may have procrastinated until 9pm tonight but I did 2 shreds! In a row! I only have to shred twice tomorow and Ill be caught back up to my one show per work out deal:) Ive also only got 2 more days until weigh ins and I get to see if this shredding has been doing me any good. Either way Im loving how I feel so if I haven't lost any pounds I can relish in the fact that I just feel better! Off to day 5! Good night and God Bless:)

soo............

I kinda busted my plan........but to be fair I was watching shows while I was getting Sunday School stuff together. Although I don't think that my procrastination until 9pm to do my shred can be excused......I am so gonna go do my shred..........ok here I go!.............hmmm...........come on motivation.......................ok I think its starting to kick in..............here it goes............sputter sputter...............alright no more waisting time now.......Im off!

Somewhere in between...

Sometimes I feel so lost somewhere in between the adult world and the just becoming adult world.
There is the adult world where everyone has children my childrens age, but have a few more years of wisdom on me. This is the world I feel kinda dumb in, like Im just not up to speed.
I get the stares like "what a irresponsible person, she must have only been 14 when she had her son; Im not letting my children hang out with hers" which is quite ridiculous because yes I was 14 when my son was born but I didn't become his mom until he was 4 and I was 18 almost 19. And I got married before I birthed my first child.
This isn't of course the majority of people I know, I have some pretty amazing friends in the adult world. And yet I feel like I am always saying something wrong or saying too much at the wrong time. Sometimes I wish I had just grown up in an ordinary family where I was taught all the do's and don't do's of society; I of course regret thinking that seconds after the thought because although my life has been up and down a little all around I am thankful for it. God gave me that life and I know that I've gone through what I needed to so that I could be who I am. I may not understand but I do know.
Then there is my age friends who don't have kids yet or they have babies. I have a few really close friends that I love as family and yet I feel like I am holding them back sometimes. Things come up or my kids are being obnoxious or just being kids; not always enjoyable. And yet these amazing friends carry on by my side, this is my world of guilt. I feel guilty that I put them through the not so fun part of parenthood when they come to hang out with me.
So here I am somewhere in between not quite fitting in anywhere.
Silly me here I am complaining when I have 2 whole groups of friends that love me for me...........I think I must just overthink things.........

My plan

So here is my plan, since I am horribly addicted to watching shows on the Internet at night I have made a rule for myself only one show per work out. No work out no show, one work out one show! So far day 3 has gone well:)

I will be posting my weight every Tuesday, yes embarrassing but I did put myself in this position.

I am feeling good though, I think the exercise is helping my energy level and emotions as well:) Today was quite hilarious my youngest (21months) was working out with me, so stinking cute. Of course at the end she decided to 'help' me by laying on my belly and hugging me while I was doing bicycle crunches, have you ever tried to bicycle crunch with an adoring toddler on your belly? Not easy, but oh so cute:)

OK off to day 4!

The end of day 2

Oh man.....I am so sore! But I have a half a buddy to work out with my husband is going to shred with me every other day:) I think Ill be able to convince my kiddos to try it out too:) Ok too tired to write much just wanted to say I made it through day 2!

Day 2....sugar free!

So I threw out all the sugar except a roll of cookie dough that my husband is 'going to cook'....right.........lol! So Im in the drive thu this morning...(should of skipped I know) I was heading in for a sweet tea when it dawned on me that my beloved sweet tea is full of sugar! So I had to settle for a small regular tea with splenda which cost more than the large sweet tea! Grr....guess Ill have to just start making iced tea; which is more budjet friendly anyway....My poor daughter though almost had a kaniption fit when I told her we weren't going to have french fries, and flat out refused the fruit and yogurt parfait.....poor kid:)
Today I am going to go shred again, Im kinda excited still and Im still gonna go get a video of my own..........go shred!

The Biggest Loser

I have recently joined the Biggest Loser challenge at my church and weighed in at 197lbs. Yes that is correct 197lbs, no typo involved. In High School I was a solid 119, these past 6 years I sadly have not taken care of myself at all....stink! But i have also started the 30 day shred and plan on losing 3.5 lbs a week.....it will be a struggle! Tonight after letting my kids gorge themselves on sugar we are going to throw out all the sugar in our house, no joke even the sugar for our coffees. We are going to switch to fake sugar:( But it will be worth it and I think it will even help my kiddos. So after day 1 of the shred I am feeling good......off to day 2!

Introduction

I believe being a Mom doesn't just happen when you have your first child, I think that is just the beginning. Although I have proudly worn the title for a good many years I am ever changing and growing to be a better Mom and Wife:) So here is year 6 of being a mom and year 3 of being a wife...........