Somewhere in between...

Sometimes I feel so lost somewhere in between the adult world and the just becoming adult world.
There is the adult world where everyone has children my childrens age, but have a few more years of wisdom on me. This is the world I feel kinda dumb in, like Im just not up to speed.
I get the stares like "what a irresponsible person, she must have only been 14 when she had her son; Im not letting my children hang out with hers" which is quite ridiculous because yes I was 14 when my son was born but I didn't become his mom until he was 4 and I was 18 almost 19. And I got married before I birthed my first child.
This isn't of course the majority of people I know, I have some pretty amazing friends in the adult world. And yet I feel like I am always saying something wrong or saying too much at the wrong time. Sometimes I wish I had just grown up in an ordinary family where I was taught all the do's and don't do's of society; I of course regret thinking that seconds after the thought because although my life has been up and down a little all around I am thankful for it. God gave me that life and I know that I've gone through what I needed to so that I could be who I am. I may not understand but I do know.
Then there is my age friends who don't have kids yet or they have babies. I have a few really close friends that I love as family and yet I feel like I am holding them back sometimes. Things come up or my kids are being obnoxious or just being kids; not always enjoyable. And yet these amazing friends carry on by my side, this is my world of guilt. I feel guilty that I put them through the not so fun part of parenthood when they come to hang out with me.
So here I am somewhere in between not quite fitting in anywhere.
Silly me here I am complaining when I have 2 whole groups of friends that love me for me...........I think I must just overthink things.........