Not only am I a Mom but I am an older sister. As a child it meant that I had an honry little red headed knobby kneed spoiled little sister that I loved more than anything and who absolutely drove me insane! As well as a little sister I barely knew and barely saw. As a teenager I obtained a brother and 2 sisters, which is a completely different sibling relationship than a childhood sibling. I was able to care for my siblings and have them over at my house for the weekend. I have grown to love my siblings unconditionally, the bond we share is incredible and completely different.
I am the oldest of 6 kids all mixed and matched, and I love it. Now as an adult I am incredibly blessed to love these 5 very unique individuals with ages ranging from 7-21yrs old. They bring about so many different joys.
Right now the ones I most see are my 21 year old sister who is pregnant with her 2nd child and seems to need me a bit more now than she has since she was 16yrs old. I am loving it, and any day now I will be meeting my new niece Addison:) I love how our relationship has come through the hard times, from being incredibly close to me pulling away and then her pulling away we are now building up a new adult sisterhood that I think will be even better:)
Then there is my 13yr old sister who is in middle school, whew! Middle school is tough! I skipped around to 4 different middle schools so I never really settled down into a routine enough to realize how difficult middle school was. I fear for her and worry about her a lot, there are so many things going on at this age that I'm not sure she's getting all the help or attention she needs. What if she makes horrible mistakes that scar her for life? I guess thats why Im here to love and guide her through these times no matter how dark or scary they get. But even though this is a tough time, there are moments that are amazing and wonderful. Bright shining, hilarious and loving moments that help me get through this and Im sure help her too.
God entrusted me with almost 4 kids of my own, 5 siblings, and 2 neighbor kids that all depend on my direction and love. 4 of which are dangerously creeping in on teenage hood. How on earth am I going to survive? As soon as those are almost done Ive got 2 more who will be teenagers and then another, not to mention whatever other kiddos fall upon my path! God must really believe in me. Regardless I love it, I love being a part of these kids lives, these little people who will one day grow into adults...
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